Think of how you felt when your mom committed suicide. Think about the people that will feel that way if you do too. You said yourself that your mom wants you to keep smiling, so keep smiling and push through. You can live through anything, and you can come to me for anything :) Try to get suicidal thoughts out of your head, lovely, because i promise, your life is worth living! :)
thank you so much, you deff just helped me mor than you’ll ever know